Not good. That's all I can say about today. Marianna's lungs continue to fill with the fluid that the cancer produces, and she struggles to breathe. She has begun to panic from not breathing, and the hospital has now put her on Adavan (I think I spelled that right) it is a heavy duty tranquilizer. She is really, really out of it now. You do not want to see this, and I am sure she would not want to be seen in such an undignified condition. Please do not visit right now. And clearly phone calls cannot go through, she cannot breathe to talk. I'm sorry.
Tomorrow (Saturday) the pulmonologist will do another procedure to look into the lungs and see if they can do something to help her. I will update again when that is done. We will also be asking Cynthia (caretaker, not daughter in law) to stay at the hospital to help care for her, you know how she is, she will not ask for anything, and refuses to "bother" the nurses. We try to be there to help, but we cannot be there full time, but we know she will let Cynthia help her, which helps us.
I hate to say this on a blog, but you need to know. The doctors need her lungs AND bowels to heal and function on their own in order to treat the cancer, but the lungs and bowel are likely affected by the cancer, so we have a closed circuit of misery right now. Marianna is tired of doing this. Being fed by tubes and emptied by tubes and having tubes breathe for her is the very thing she always feared. We need your prayers now more than ever. This lung thing needs to be resolved. Otherwise we have agreed to respect her wishes, and let her go home. It is going to be the toughest weekend of our lives.
Thank you all for your prayers, and your kind words. We are printing emails and comments to take to her as encouragement, and so very, very sorry we cannot ask you to encourage her in person. Please pray that they can deal with her lungs tomorrow so we can get her back in action and let her visit with the folks she loves so very much.
With all of the family's love,
CW
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